Al-Fatihah

smlm mama bru nk rsa hidup semula.

hari ni... i really feel like shutting the whole world behind me!!!!!

mama tgh wat dissertation. k.far called.

mbah... my grandmother. ye, mama 50% jawa, 25% banjar. mama mmbesar rapat ngn mbah. rsa nya mama nmpk mbah lebeih bnyk dr mak. mbah slalu dtg tgk kitorg bile maids mama suruh mak berentikn. asal coti sekolah, sure mak anto blk kg. bile mama pndai drive, mama drive sndrik blk kg. and mama ngaku, mama pernah 'lari dr rumah' tp bkn ikot jantan ye, tp mama drive sorg2 balik pd mbah... sbb mama rsa 'selamat' bile ngn mbah.

"cepatla yong kawen, mbah nk jaga ank2 yong"
"cepatla yong kawen, mbah nk jaga ank2 yong. mbah dh xlama ni"
"cepatla yong kawen, mbah takot xsempat tgk yong kawen"

mbah sntiasa repeat mnda ni ulang2. but i always let her down. of all her grandchildren, mama antra 3 cucu yg mbah nk tgk kitorg kawen and nk jga cicitnya(ank2 kitorg 3). maaf pd adik2 mama klu terbaca, tp korg pon tau, kn. jgn salahkn mbah...


k.far, atleast k.far ade ngn mbah before mbah pegi umrah.
abaya, atleast abaya ade kt sisi mbah di saat2 akhir mbah.
mama?


mama???????


Al-Fatihah...