it's been a hard decision for me to update this blog, again. sebab, bila baca balik, jauh sudah tersasar dari tujuan sebenar. lepas tu pulak, nak update 1 blog je kekdahnya...tapi ni nape la balik ke sini semula.....
let me update myself first. 1 tahun 6 bulan sudah mama bekerja dengan company baru. totally different from the previous company i've had worked for, dari segi environment, people, benefits and such. to put it simple, sama je macam masa mama dulu kuar dari 'Sekolah Budak2 Pandai' ke sekolah biasa. bezanya, masa sekolah biasa, food is heaven!!!!! superb!!! dan semua orang tahu, mama lebih happy, lebih ceria bila ke sekolah biasa. more freedom, i'd say. x pernah terlintas 'regret' kerana ke sekolah biasa...mama belajar jadi manusia normal, hidup normal, survival kena tinggi. aaahhhh... i missed my school days kat sekolah biasa!
berbalik pada sekarang, when i stated that the "food is heaven" then, meaning...makanan tidak memuaskan kat opis baru. ahahahhahahahahaaaa.....ohhhh yes, my life is all about food! let's put aside the 'food' dissatisfaction for a while. at this organization, mama punya job scope pon totally different from the previous company; it's more up to the higher level of management punya kerja and reporting. seriously higher level. maksudnya, seriously stressful when the figures membuatkan kita sendiri pon sakit jantung. ahahahhahahahaaaaa.... kalau dulu, cuma nampak paling banyak pon 1 million, sekarang ni billions. mula2 dulu juling gaks la mata, kan...banyak benau nombor eh...ahahahahhahahahahhaaaaa....
pape pon, here, i can find myself breathing, peacefully.
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let's talk about 'food'. can you guys imagine, seorang yang suka makan, tiba2 x boleh makan? it's depressing, huh? food is a need.
i've been in and out of the hospital for the past 1 year...to be exact, right after last year's Eid (raya puasa). satu nikmat hidup telah ditarik Allah. i'm not saying that i can't eat at all, but...i can no longer enjoy food like how i used to. as for last year itself, i have to force myself untuk telan plain porridge for more than 2 months. i get stomach upset so easily...makan nasi perut sakit sangat!!! you guys know how much i love nasi, kan? alaaa...nama pon perut jawa, mesti cari nasik!
there were polyps in my stomach and usus, and...gastik mama sudah jadi ulcer.
well, it's normal nowadays to have this kind of sickness/illness. it's nothing serious, really...it's just that i've become thinner due to masalah makan (uwaaaaaa.....at times, saya lapar tapi bila makan, perut sakit).
kebanyakan staff kat opis dok ingat mama stress kerja...sampai kurus. tapi, x kan mama nak cakap "saya sakit" duhhh..... i hate to be looked and treated as weak and an incapable.
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cut the story short, polyps sudah removed. sudah 2 kali. kali ke-2 buang, polyps nya lebih banyak dan ada juga yang tumbuh di hempedu. oh well, it seems like selepas kali peertama buang, mama jaga (pantang) makan, benda alah tu tumbuh dengan jayanya (lebih banyak) dan happynya. so, i have decided, x yah la pantang...belasah je makan...afterall, the thing will keep growing, it will come out no matter what. boleh? (the truth is x pantang pon bukan boleh makan sangat pon...stomach upset kekdahnya)
anddddd.....ada menda lain juga telah di'discover' masa scan haritu, before polyps dibuang kali ke-2. i have yet to take any action on the new discovery.
owh well...since the 1st time sakit and buang bagai, sesungguhnya mama rasa duit banyak pon x de makna!!!
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the other day, i found 'enchek' nya hp no#. very funny coz mama dah buang no# nya ok masa tukar hp baru (ye, i keep on changing hp sebab nak makan dah x boleh, so i try to satisfy myself, to keep myself happy -- tapi x hepi pon).
cukup la updatenya setakat ni ye. nak type banyak lagi tapi nanti jadi cam essay la pulak (eheh...macam x biasa la pulak, kan?)
