***this entry has been typed/prepared on 4/4/09 and was saved as draft and only now mama publish kannya. reason? i cudn't remember any specific reason. whatever it is, enjoy......
is it true that 2 perfect strangers can actually fall in love, senang cite atleast develop feelings towards each other if they play the '100 days couple'?
hari ni tibe2 mama tersedar sesuatu. korang2 yang pompuan ni... sure ade yang macam mama. hahaaaa... nak cite, malu. tapi la kan... dah tibe2 terfikir mende nih.
he's always there for me...through out those years---with my ups and downs. he knows everything---in and out of me (baca:bukan benda lucah).
he'd chose me over his girlfriend. he's worried 'bout me more than his girlfriend. dia tau mama ni independent; terlalu independent sampai dia selalu marah mama. i always keep things to myself but he knows.
sume kat college dulu pon mistaken us as a couple, termasok all my lecturers and department's head.
yup2. he confessed (dulu). tapi pada mama, ianya satu gurauan. sebab mama x pernah percaya setiap kali dia serius, boley? dia sentiasa ceriakan hidup mama.
to him, he'll leave everything just for his mother, his sister and me. itu fakta yang memang dah berlaku beberapa kali.
tibe2 mama rasa 'IT'S HURT'.
it's hurt to see someone you love with somebody else who don't even know how to cherish him/her.
it's hurt to see someone you love cried for his/her love (apa x nampak ke aku ni.... kat depan ko!!!)
it's hurt to see someone you love jadik cam orang giler/xbtol/x waras dan ilang segala2 yang disukai...ketinggalan 5 years from the others... tiada achievement while he/she has so much talent tapi bodoh kerana cinta.
he's more like a brother to me. my big bro.
well... berbalik pada persoalan kat mula entry nih tadik. memang sangat x de kna-mengena ngan apa yang mama cerita selepas tuh. cume nya, btol ke? boley ke camtu?
tapi klu mama pk2 balik, orang dolu2 nikah dulu, then baru nak kenal their other half. ni termasoklah arwah my grandparents from both sides.
nape mama cakap gini? haruskah mama bagitau? setakat ni hanya my best close friends those whom i trusted so much je yang tau. cukup mama bagitau camtu pon udah kna brainwash. hahaaaaaaaaaa......... x pasal nanti ade laks kecam mama. paling mama x leh terima bile ada orang2 yang ntah sape2 kuar la ayat itu ini nak mertarbiyah kan mama pasal hukum laks (btol ke penggunaan tarbiyah tuh?).
maka... sile speku....
muahahhahahahahahaaaaaaa......
korang akan bosan n meluat bile baca seterusnya.
orang kata, IMPOSSIBLE UNTUK SEORANG LAKI DAN PEREMPUAN UNTUK JADIK BEST FRIEND. pada mama, individu tersebut masing2 tau ape kehendak hati mereka.
i called him on his b'day, as usual. unfortunately, he didn't pickup his phone apatah lagi nak reply msg mama lepas tuh. mama marah sangat2 mule2, geram!!! then mama terpikir... i've been childish whenever i was with him, manja n ngada2. x cukup lagi kah? there must be reason nape dia x angkat phone, x balas msg mama.
kalo korang tanya mama ade perasaan kat dia x, jawapan mama... TIDAK. i just can't.
mama rasa, it's time untuk let him go. mama pon bukan tau ek, ntah2 mama ni wat hidupnya lagik tertekan. maksud mama, i hurt him tanpa sedar.
walau bagaimanapon, mama treasure persahabatan kami. he's always there for me.ALWAYS.
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tukar topic.
masa enchek call mama aritu kan... kata enchek mama macam robot. i realized that conversation kitorang cam awkward giler. mama cobe untuk me'lively'kan conversation tapi, timing pon x sesuai kan.
it's good to hear his voice again. i have so many qs to asked but end up tanya khabar and boley laks mama tanya "wanna have lunch together?" super bodoh kan soklan tuh. jawapan balas pon skema btol, "not today" ahahhahahahaaaaaa..... ofcourse la kan, sorang kat kl, sorang kat *toot* (if aritu enchek keje la kan, tu pon klu x outstation).
