Reflection on oneself and others

"Allah charges no soul except [with that which is] within its capacity"

Surah al-Baqarah, 2:286

so many things happened since mama tingglkn Malaysia (tanahair ku). dah berape loss???

mama yg happy-go-lucky, bnyk ckp changed drastically since december. 1 after another 'ujian'. am not myself anymore... am a body without soul... keep moving on just to finish what i started. but sumhow, it deteriorate lah. and mama was ill the whole easter break. btol kta leena, sume2 psychology.

then mama try to stand on my 2 feet again. suddenly, another sad news.

a friend of mama prnah bg ayat kt atas tuh. then mama terpikir... masa tgh mandi td. klakar lah sbb boleh 'muhasabah diri' time tgh mandi.

"berapa kali Allah bg mama peluang unt hidup? menikmati erti kehidupan?"

mula2, mama jwb another chance--ni termasok sjk mama dilahirkn lah. skali nye... dush..dush.
mama silap!!!!! ape yg mama kira kt atas adlh mnda yg xspatutnya mama kira. how many times mama accident??? accident--org yg witness kta "OMG, you are lucky!!!" "xluka ape2?" "sure you are ok?" "pembonceng slalunye....."
*sujud pd Allah*

dr gambar2 tuh.. ape yg anda nmpk? call me freak, but pd mata mama..."Subhanallah, cantiknya...luas... tenang. oh, mama ada mata! Alhamdulillah.. mama nk share ngn sume ape mama nmpk yg wat mama tenang"--hnya sorg kwn mama dpt interpret isi hati mama (precisely) melalui gambar2 yg mama amik, and she's a catholic.

ok, mama bkn nk preach, ye, kt sini. mama bengang tau x? mama sgt marah. hmmm... how could this feeling tibe2 dtg?


1. do not judge other ppl based on what u hear.
2. 'reflection'.
3. hatred is a disease.
4. shirk destroys any good deeds a person may have done, no matter how great or numerous.


marilah sama2 kita pk. ni dr pandangan mama.

no1: korg sume sure tau game 'telefon karat?' ke 'radio' yg kita dlm 1 group, org dpn skali dpt msg n msg tuh di passed ke org blkg... smpi la yg last. will the person at the end got/received the message clear and correct?
manusia ni ade mulot. manusia ada hati. so, mulot tuh mmg kita xleh control lah... asal bukak je kn... klu baik, pleasant bg org skeliling. klu mcm cibai... hmmm...xdapek den nk nolong.
hati pulak, tlalu sincere org ngata, xcaya... tp klu sebaliknye.... ni jd penyakit hati. itu berkaitan ngn no3.

no2: reflection. nape kita nmpk kesalahan org je? kita nmpk x kelemahan kita? nape melenting bile org tegur kita? menggelisah bile org xnk kwn kita? ignore kita?

no3: ni pnyakit hati lah. hatred... bile dia dh mmbuak2 kn... kita rasa mcm nk giler. sume org salah... sume org xbtol... benci sume org!!! then timbul lah hasad dengki tuh. kesan??? KO JADIK PSYCHO LA NOK!!!! idop xtenang, gelisah je... ye laaa... sbb dok jaga tepi kain org

no4: yg ni kn... hmmm... 'showing-off' lah senang cite. nk dpt pujian, ek. kira2nya...org nmpk kebaikan ko je la. ye lahh.. ko je lah bagus. ko je lah hebat. tp msa ko wat tuh, ko pk x org sekeliling ko? maksudnya, have you ever hurt them? ngape boley wat baik pd org but not to your own flesh and blood? or, masa ko bg cheque, press snap2 kiri kanan smpi pinau bijik mata... ko paham ke sumbangan tu unt ape? klu ikhlas, alhamdulillah.


kesimpulan, korg pk sndrik!!! ahahhahaaaaaaa..... as mama ckp, ni pndgn mama lah. mama ckp ni pon skdar mengingatkn(btol ke eja?) diri mama gaks sbg manusia, mama xprnah lari dr kesilapan. itu namanya kelemahan manusia. mama admit kesalahan mama and mama improve kn diri mama bile mama tau mama silap. but, ye laa...manusia... otak sgt2 sceptical and they never wanna accept perubahan baik org yg dulu xbaik. bg peluang la weii..

then again... we are only human. masing2 ade otak unt pk. ada mulot unt ckp. yg penting adlh 'hati', 'niat' kita.

when fire alarm went off

pada mama.. tgk 360 diri kita. tgk 360 org before nk ckp pape--setiap individu. xpuas hati??? confront individu tersebut! and its better to keep your mouth shut than to hurt other ppl or... ko cukup2lah dok ngumpat org tuh. xke mana pon. cermin diri!!!

we will never know the truth klu ngn manusia nih. science ok gaks lah... sbb nye manusia ade mulot, ade hati, ade otak. so, unt survival for sure lah seseorg akn jd 'hipokrit'. bagos tu bagos(ye ke bagos?) tp mama xpraktis lah, ye... sbb mama ni direct org nye. itu psal org kta mama mulot xde insurance. ye dah org wat salah...xkn nk diam? or, xkn nk cite kt org lain, kire ckp blkg lah. kn dh ngumpat namanye? jd nye, ye tego... ahhahahhahaaaaaa.... n mama pon terima teguran ngn hati terbuka.

~maka, cukup2 lah mama grief ye... sume ni ujian. bnyk lagi dpn mama yg perlu mama hadapi n selesaikn. yg penting mama jaga diri mama, peribadi mama. so, STOP THINKING ABOUT WHAT OTHER PEOPLE yg xsudah2 dok THINK ABOUT OTHER PEOPLE??!!! tgk org jd kn pengajaran, jgn jd camtu atau jdkn ape yg mama tgk, blaja sbg inspirasi. haa.. lg satu!!! BE HUMBLE!!!~

sume2 ni peringatan unt diri mama sendrik juga! mama jauh la dr seorg yg 'alim', ok!!! i am what i am. known as ranggi lah dr kt mesia. jgn judge mama dr gambar kt profile tuh, itu time kenduri... haha... as i mentioned kat previous entry, i dont judge ppl by their appearance or baju yg nmpk sopan@sebaliknya. coz me, myself, xla se baik org yg baik2.

"...Indeed, Allah will not change the condition of a people until they change what is in themselves..."

Surah ar-Ra'd. 13:11

the solution begins with the individual... IN THE SOUL!