sume orang tau game ni.
korang kena amik folded paper dalam bowl pastu baca what's written on it. however, kali ni..... orang lain boley criticize boley cakap ape saja and yang empunya kertas harus stand pada sama ada agree/disagree ngan ape yang tertulis.
it was about my turn when i was called regards on incident yang berlaku dalam monorail tadik. udah..... kna interrogate lah gamaknya. mama dah start panic... but, yeah... it's better than mama 'terpaksa' baca what's written on this piece of paper. rubbish!! i definitely disagree dan x puas hati ngan ape yang mama dapat nih. sungguh x logik!!!
abis kna soal-siasat pasal incident monorail, mama tengok jam dah time balik. maksudnya, mama terlepas lah untuk bagitau ape tertulis kat kertas mama ni kan. waaaaaaaahhhhh.... hepi betol mama!!! hati berbunga2 mau pulang ke rumah.

i was about to take a step towards 'freedom' when i heard familiar voices(bosses) panggey mama. darn!!! sampai ke sini mereka carik mama. yeah right..... i always caused probs, kan. always up to something yang pastu wat chaos. urrrggghhhhh....
rope2nya, all the bosses mau tau what's written on the paper. heck!!! sibuk je kan. but then mama pk, ok laaaa... just baca dan bagi hujah2 mama, pasti mama lepas, kan???
mana tau...lepas habis baca, 1 of the bosses suruh mama tunggu jap sebab yang lain akan datang n dengar n bagi pendapat dorang, critics bagai. boley????? amboiiiiiiii!!!!! mama btol2 x puas hati!!!!!
tapi nak jaga air muka n reputasi (like i used to), mama stay. sambil tu, mama jugek pk macam2 soklan n jawapan. kna equip diri ngan senjata n enough shield, kan. walau bagaimanapun, mama tetap x puas hati... ape punye soklan????!!! x membina langsung!!!!
tengah pala otak berserabut tuh, dengar orang jerit panggey mama... alamak... dah datang budak2 ni.......

my eyes were wide open..... mama wisau..... rasa x senang....
"mana MARIA AISYA????.... where's my daughter????? where's pokpok?"
my head hurts... maria aisya.....pokpok...
nape Adik je yang ada kat sebelah??? mana Maria Aisya??????
pokpok dah lama mati.....*sigh*
darn!!!!!
amik towel, masok toilet. masa mandi pala masih sakit. was i married before????? do i really have a daughter named Maria Aisya?
bukak wardrobe... senang hati tengok baju tersusun itot kaler (mama memang sangat2 rigid). what should i wear to work???
took out my M&S blouse, zara pants, darnnnn..... am i too picky??? hmmm...i don't think so.
dok tempek lotion, foundation, bedak, makeup (avon, estee lauder, mac, dior) pakai perfume, estee lauder. tangan dok capai my gucci handbag. wait!!!!!! what am i??? (taste mokcik2 ye anak2) tros tuko pakai backpack sajork supaya x nampak keterlaluan.
nak kuar umah... amik kasut. primavera. (satu ari nanti nak beli jimmy choo's)
~high maintenance kah?
that's it!!!!
i think am going crazy.....
but i do feel good when i look good and smells good---mama jugek sakit mata tengok orang esp. pompuan klu selekeh (termasok my immediate family).
ok. pilih mana korang rasa btol dalam entry nih, mana
mimpi,
realiti, atau
fantasi.........
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pala masih sakit. ni dah baper hari ntah.
shed tears on Friday evening. looking back at my past which i hardly remember... it's loneliness that i felt.
i work so hard to forget everything that makes me sad. think there're still some of memories that i refused to let go.
pathetic, kan. tried hard to be 'real' but nowadays it's really hard to see a smile on my face.
not only my colleagues... people downstairs & yang kat atas wonders why. so much tense, anger, sadness shows. it's hard to pretend sekarang nih. mama xnak berlakon lagik. mama xnak berpura2 lagik.
am i fully recovered from my breakdown?

soklan pertama masa dah waras dulu, "was i married to .....mr.B?" and i was glad (and still am) that i definitely have nothing with him. tapi nape rasa uneasy tibe2 bile terjaga dari tido dan carik Maria Aisya? did Maria Aisya really exist? nape mama sangat windu pada kanak2 kecil bernama Maria Aisya?
nape sekarang tibe2 jadik gini? nape tibe2 rasa sangat2 x tenang?
i've put a lot of effort to change to what (or is it who? ~punye bangang sampai x dapat beza) i am today. well yeahhh.... kadang2 tibe2 ngan x sengaja akan terasa nak wat 'things' that i used to do, be who i used to be. so free.......
enchek. mama windu enchek sangat2. tapi, i put it this way...
mama balik mesia, my precious angels sume tinggalkan mama, embah no longer alive, maka... so does enchek.
feel like crying tapi mama x nak mak, ayah, Adik, Angah, Baya wisau mama lagik. tried hard not to run nor to hide. mama x nak jadik 'self-destructive' macam dulu lagik. there's so much to enjoy dalam idup nih.
sile jangan makan hati. go to Leeds, carik SAHARA kat town.
~if u can't read maps... learn!!! i'd say it's really convenient to have maps along with ya provided u're good at orientation n location.
(guys, girls memang failed baca map and akan sumpah seranah kat pembuat map. i used to be 1 of them)best
site ever lah klu nak jalan masa mama kat UK dulu. it's too precise to be true??? or was it just coincidence that happened everyday???
mada mada dame desu
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