enough: demotivated

sekarang ni panas sangat cuaca kan. ramai yang flu fever bagai...x baik2 lagi. oh well, i am part of those jugak lah. infact mama nya tekak bleed (again) & x baik2 since last week. i had fever on and off and it hits 39º bila malam. bertempek dah obat mama telan. ujian.....

ini mama type dari hp. macam pelek pon ada. susah kot... maafkan mama on typo ye...

it's been 2 years mama ngan co. baru. dan selama 2 tahun ni juga mama dok sakit on-off spital. people said feng-shui opis ni x sesuai ngan mama, which mama sebenarnya setuju, oley? **hahaaa** it's true...mama sakit je kok. and my boss siap sound lagi...katanya mama ni sikit2 sakit. nape opis lama dulu sihat walafiat je? oh well, mama tiada jawapan bagi soklan yang mama rasa 'pelek'?

i have had enough. kesian badan ni. i need to move on. i wanna settledown. **hiks..** tapi x de calon **ngeee** 

makayah semakin berumur. apa guna mama hanya dapat bagi duit n kebendaan bagai tapix spend quality time n bersama2 mereka. i am always the last to know on any new things hapened in the family. baik immediate famly mahupon my big extended family. i failed to be the daughter for my parents n as a sister to my siblings. i was not even there for my brother's n sister's wedding preparation. deep down inside mama sangat hurt. nape x amik coti? ko ingat boss mama bagi? hmmmphh.. x lepas..... apparently, the same thing hapened theother day whe  i had my appointment (hospital). i was asked to change my appointment date which dah buat 2x sampai doctor tegur "is work so important tha  your health?" n i have to come to work the day of my appointment n i was off bila yang diperlukan dapat green light. seriously, just a few words to be amended that my colleague po  boleh buat tapi nak jugak mama yang datang buat. i don't i'm gonna let myself being bulied cmni lagi. enougb is enough.

duhh....mama x suke cite pasal opis kan. tapi dah cerita. nasib la. and i don't wanna edit nor amend mana2 part. nasib la. kot cite ni keluar n sampai kat pihak2 berkenaan. 

people, please, have a heart. be kind to your staff. be kind to others. kita hidup ji x lama. amd jangan dok doubt orang saja bila diri sendiri pon bukan betol sangat pon. to me, beingil is not an excuse untuk mama x dtang keje. mama datang kan...mama keje tanpa pwduli orang. mama silap sebab mama dah ketwpikan family kerana keje. mama buman orang yang suke2 amik mc n my annual leave diambil unt my hosppital appointment.

tolong jaga kebajikan staff. 

cukup luahan harini. money is not everything when u're ill. mama x hadappon duit bonus bagai. cukup mama sihat. dah. i wanna contribute to my family yang sentiasa surt mama..who loves me tenderly and unconditionally.